Looking Back

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakaatuh

Its really hard to be consistent in lots of things. In study...in leisure-reading (especially for someone like me who's at a kindergarten stage in learning-to-make-reading-as-a-habit thing)...in 'amal (going to usrah or reading daily ma'thurat, perhaps?)...in jogging (love jogging but sometimes toooo lazy to go out)...in relationships (calling home once a week?)..in blogging (like reading, writing won 2nd place in my so-called lazylist)

Well, easy to say...its difficult to be consistent in maintaining high spirit, high physical, high mental knowledge, high positive-emotions...anybody remember "J.E.R.I" ?? zaman sekolah dulu kala..

Anyway, today is 14th of Muharram 1431 hijrah..and tomorrow is 1 January 2010..how time flies..alhamdulillah I got to experience new year hijrah at home..and now new year 2010 here in Auckland, New Zealand! Can't wait to see the fireworks!!

Looking back at the previous year, what have I done? Where did I improve? What have I overlooked? Was I any better from last year? Or still the same old unchanged me?
A question after another...which goes on and on and on.....

A good step for evaluation is to find your "I have a dream for 2009" list from last year, which unfortunately I couldn't find..silly me..It wasn't in my planner..so must've been somewhere else at home. Anyway if you do have it try to tick the ones that made it to the target. For me myself, I'd have to make a new list of what I think I have improved for the last one year.

One thing that I've learned was that a good start would be having a daily checklist, the 'mutaba'ah amal'...and for the long-run aim - be practical. This reminder is totally for none other than myself. Having an ideal idea of for example -working out 3 times a week to lose weight or hafazing a surah every fortnight, seems too good to be true. We all know our own potential..our own abilities..our own constraints..So, build yourself with little things to start with, and add up from year to year. You can't consume all the food in the world at one time, you know..enjoy it bit by bit as you go along..then only you'd get the chance to taste different kind of food at different places with different people throughout your journey. Its not so much about getting your stomach filled, but the invaluable experience you'd get while you're filling you stomach. Does that make any sense? Well, I would say it as an indirect blessing from Allah which you can't see but you could feel. What is more to that is the ultimate reward of Jannah for those who are Istiqamah
" Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang berkata "Tuhan kami adalah Allah", kemudian mereka meneguhkan pendirian mereka (thumma sstaqim), maka malaikat-malaikat akan turun kepada mereka (dengan berkata), "Janganlah kamu merasa takut dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati; dan bergembiralah kamu dengan syurga yang telah dijanjikan kepadamu."
                                                                    [Surah Fussilat, 41:30]

Subhanallah isn't that good news, ya mukmineen? Yes, you and me! InsyaAllah.

Everyone wants their dreams to come true..My suggestion is that, start now..plan in detail..make progression..maintain high spirit..never lose hope to Allah..
I just remembered what this one ustaz said during his ceramah back home. He said that if it was written that we were to reach a high position 'indaAllah (di sisi Allah), and we couldn't reach it with our possession (harta), then Allah would test us with our health and family until we do reach that invaluable position.

So my dear friends, to be consistent and berpendirian teguh (istiqamah), it needs hard work..Struggle is a must. Let me share with you a story of a butterfly:

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to squeeze its body through the tiny hole. Then it stopped, as if it couldn't go further. So the man decided to help the butterfly.

He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bits of cocoon. The butterfly emerged easily but it had a swollen body and shriveled wings. The man continued to watch it, expecting that any minute the wings would enlarge and expand enough to support the body.

To his surprise, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around. It was never able to fly!
What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was:

The restricting cocoon and the struggle required by the butterfly to get through the opening was a way of forcing the fluid from the body into the wings so that it would be ready for flight once that was achieved.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. Going through life with no obstacles would cripple us. We will not be as strong as we could have been and we would never fly with flying colours.

A reminder just in case you forgot. Sounds familiar? :P

Wallahua'lam. Allah knows best.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakaatuh.


Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh

I'm in my final exam week. InsyaAllah by this Saturday I'll be finishing my first year in the University of Auckland :D

I came across this wonderful poem

I asked for STRENGTH...
And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for WISDOM...
And God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for PROSPERITY...
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for COURAGE...
And God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for LOVE...
And God gave me Troubled People to help.
I asked for FAVOURS...
And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted,
I received everything I needed,
My prayers have been answered.

Refresh your soul...



Today is the birthday of my dear friend, Siti Norhazwani binti Hadzir. Now becoming 21. Your old! haha..

She adores, admires, loooooves cats...so u could call her Ummu Hurairah, i suppose :D
or simply Wani Meow Meow..obviously, that explains the birthday gift I gave..(the cat-frame, if u look closely :D)

She likes green too..the prophet's favorite color! Its a good thing no cats are green..or else she would be surrounded by them..weird aiyh?

We've been good friends since college..was my roomate and also unofficial usrah partner.
Had superb time together..went to a lot of programs..self-developed ourselves..also a great jogging partner :)  Looking forward for more wonderful time together, InsyaAllah!

She brigthens peoples' day with her smile. Sya even said she has this sort of naughty smile..whatever that means..

Anyway, friends are gift from Allah. Appreciate them <<< A really good advise for me, I'd say.. Too hard to show affection, i guess.

Deep from my heart I believe this journey to New Zealand has been the greatest moment of my life yet..thanks to all my dear friends..old and new..from all walks of life..

To Wani : Thank you so much and May Allah bless you. Uhibbuki filllah~


++ Kau Aku Berbeza ++

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh

Okie dokie..What will I be talking about today? I feel like talking about you..me..them..well basically US!! :p

So, don't you ever feel like why am not I like her...like him..being soooo famous....soooo intellectual..sooo understanding...soooo goodlooking...soooo rich..soooo can-get-along-well-with-everyone.....sooo pious....and all the sooo sooo's...

Sometimes it feels like why does everyone get what they want. They have everything, the looks, the name, the position, the 'ka-ching'. And me? err...natha??

People tend to see those above them..those who are more successful..happier..not having any difficulties in life..those having all the things they want. What exactly is the definition of living a happy life? Money? Understanding partners? Looks?

Syed Qutb when going overseas saw that Englishmen had very narrow perspective on what they define as happiness in life. They live for the sake of satisfying themselves, their families, and at most probably their job or career. Their cita-cita, goal in life was very narrow..short-termed..because they didn't understand about the hereafter. The goal that a true muslim would have. The goal that would give eternal happiness or eternal suffering. The jannah or the jahannam.

So its not the material that gives us happiness, its Allah's blessings..His rahmat on us that gives us sakeenah ketenangan jiwa.

Like what Allah mentioned in Surah al Layl:

" .....And [by] He who created the male and female.
Indeed, your efforts are diverse.
As for he who gives and fears Allah
And believes in the best [reward]
We will ease him towards ease...." [92: 3-7]

SubhanAllah..what more can you ask for? Your Protector who promises to help everything you do..always being there for you..

What more would you define happiness than satisfactory.

For example, if you were to sit in an exam and the result was truly beyond your expectation, wouldn't the feeling of satisfied be enough to describe all your hard work?

Or even if you d idn't get a very good result but Allah helped you on the day of the exam. You did your very best..but still you think you might fail..and it turns out that you got a B! which was way different than the D you expected..wouldn't you feel satisfied with Allah's help?

Just remember..Allah is the Bestower..Al-Wahhab..Yang Maha Pemberi..He who gives to whom He wishes. A poor man does not mean that Allah belittles him. A rich man does not mean that Allah honours him. Its taqwa that Allah sees.

" O mankind! Indeed we have created you male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous (atqaakum) of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted."                              
                                                                             [Surah Al Hujurat, 49:13]

In the book, 99 Kecerdasan Berasaskan Asmaul Husna the author says that Allah positions someone with what that person could afford. He gave Prophet Sulaiman and Daud the greatest and biggest kingdom there is. No one has yet have a kingdom greater than them. Yet, there were among Allah's best hamba (ni'mal 'abd)..pious..a prophet spreading the word of God..the shadatul haq..Were they proud of the kingdom they own? of the people, jin, and animals they ruled? No. Instead they praised Allah, as was recorded in the Quran
" My Lord, enable me to be grateful for Your favor which You have bestowed upon me and upon my parents and to do righteousness of which You approve. And admit me by Your mercy into [the ranks of] Your righteous servants."

                                                                                       [Surah AnNaml, 27:19]

It could be that Allah made a person poor, so that he or she could be closer to Him. Don't be like Qarun of Fir'aun, who was rich, famous, owned an empire but denied Allah. Thought that what they earned was through their effort, hardwork, and their knowledge alone. How arrogant. Na'uzubillah..

So, yes we might come from different worlds. But just remember..Allah sees what's in our hearts :)


Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh~

I'm so supposed to be in the exam mood. Supposed to. Alhamdulillah got the mood today. I would say I spent today much much better than last week. 

I just came back from work. While I was cleaning with the earphone plugged, Dawud Wharnsby Ali's song 'Life is not a box' really made me think.

Which kind of person am I? 

What would you describe you??

hmm...muhasabah diri kembali..

Till we blog again.

Cookies, anyone??

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh

Sangkaan. Sangkaan. Sangkaan. People tend to make assumptions over something without even having to look at it in detail, nor discussing it with others. We make decisions base on what's in our head. What we perceive as right.

But letting it out or sharing it with someone does really help. Totally. We think its really really complicated, as if, 'that's it..I'm screwed', but the fact is its not. Just sit with someone you trust, and let it out.

Allah even mentioned it in Surah Al-Hujurat, 49:12

"O you who believe! Avoid much [negative] assumption. Indeed some
assumption is sin..."

Making negative assumptions on a matter wont do you any good. It just messes with your head. May the effort of avoiding assumptions be rewarded by Allah. May the decision we make be the best for us.

Fa itha 'azamta fatawakkal 'alallah.....

Here's another no-good-of-being-prejudice-story-telling poem. Enjoy!

A woman was waiting at the airport one night,
With several long hours before her flight.

She hunted for a book in the airport shop
Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop.

She was engrossed in her book, but happened to see,
That the man beside her, as bold as could be,
Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag between,
Which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene,

She read, munched cookies, and watched the clock,

As the gustly "cookie thief" diminished her stock.
She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by,

Thinking, "If I wasn't so nice, I'd blacken his eye!"

With each cookie she took, he took one too.

When only one was left, she wondered what he'd do.

With a smile on his face and a nervous laugh,

He took the last cookie and broke it in half.

He offered her half, and he ate the other.

She snatched it from him and thought, "Oh brother,

This guy has some nerve, and he's also so rude,
Why he didn't even show any gratitude!"

She had never known when she had been so galled,

And sighed with relief when her flight was called.

She gathered her belongings and headed for the gate,
Refusing to look at the "thieving ingrate".

She boarded the plane and sank in her seat,

Then sought her book, which was almost complete.

As she reached her baggage, she gasped with surprise,

There were her bag of cookies in front of her eyes!

"If mine are here," she moaned with despair,

"Then the others were his and he tried to share!"
Too late to apologize, she realized with grief,
That she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief!!!

Allah knows best~


Its been almost a month since I last posted anything here. Alhamdulillah first Ramadhan n Syawal here was not as bad as I thought ( I never did think it as bad, though). But still nothing can beat Malaysia. I love Malaysia! Love Bangi! Love me casa!

Well...oh yes..Alhamdulillah praise be to Allah, since tarbiyyah here had also increased linearly proportional to the 'grab-a-deal' Ramadhan. The month was filled with lots of activities, sittings, and halaqah with a murabbi from Malaysia. Jazakumullah to all!! ;)

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. We never do realize how lucky we are, how AlMighty Allah is, how Gracious He is for making us who we are now. A sister once taught me, whenever we feel stressed out, or complain on anything..say Astaghfirullah once and Alhamdulillah ten times. Then, u'll realize that the things that we complain of is way smaller than the things Allah has given us..the things we already have. Subhanallah.

Being overseas we could see Islam much much better. I have this one Arab friend. Her name is Syaheed. One thing about her that inspires me is that whenever she is with her friends, she is never ashame of saying Alhamdulillah, SubhanAllah, MasyaAllah, even when she's around Kiwis.

Once, when it was time for solat zohor I said to my Tonga friend "Oh..hey..mm..gotta go somewhere..c ya". I was kind of like segan to say that I wanted to go the the prayer space. Ya Allah what a fool I was. Somehow when I speak English I tend to care about the people I would be talking to. Its like not being myself...how do I say this..well..its like as if I've put on an 'english-speaking-mode' mask on...and speak as what a white person would speak..until I forgot the muslim identity that should be shown through words..through what I say..I mustn't care too much on what others would say, eyh..what matters most is what would Allah say..

But Alhamdulillah practice does make perfect. So now after realizing how a fool I was for being malu tak bertempat, I do now try to practice a bit here and there.

Talking about gratefulness...Allah reminded us in the Holy Quran

" So remember Me, I will remember you.And be grateful to Me and do not deny Me"
(Surah AlBaqarah, 2:152)

Also an inspiring quote from Khalifah Abu Bakar,

"Ketahuilah wahai hamba Allah, sesungguhnya Allah Taala dengan hakNya mengambil diri kamu sebagai gadaian. Untuk itu Dia mengambil janji setia dengan kamu. Dia membeli daripadamu sesuatu yang sedikit dan akan binasa, dan membayarnya dengan sesuatu yang banyak dan kekal."

Just a bit of muhasabah Ramadhan. May the enthusiasm of Ramadhan be with us until the next Ramadhan insyaAllah.

Have faith in what Allah has promised to the Mukmineen. May He guide us all.

Oh yeah..another thing I'd like to share..this beautiful poem (dont know who the author is):

Allah Knows whats best for us

So why should we complain
We always want sunshine
But He knows there must be rain

We always want laughter
And the merriment of cheer
But our hearts will lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear

Allah tests us often
With suffering and with sorrow

He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow

For growing trees are strengthened
If they can withstand the storm
And the sharpness of the chisel
Gave the marble its grace and form

Allah tests us often,
And for every pain He gives us
Provided we are patient
Is followed by rich gain

So whenever we feel that
Everything's going wrong
It's just Allah's way
To make our spirits strong

Wallahu 'alam...Till then. Assalamualaikum~


Here's a beautiful story about one woman who devoted great love to Allah and Allah granted her the reward of no other woman on earth possess..

Her name is Maryam binti 'Imran. I wrote the following article for the Remembrance of AlQuds day (R.O.Q) and its obviously in Malay..do continue reading...

Marilah kita menyusuri kisah seorang wanita Bani Israel yang mendapat kemuliaan di sisi Allah. Wanita agung ini diberi nama Maryam binti ‘Imran.
Ibunya bernama Hannah bt Faqud, salah seorang ahli ibadah yang zuhud pada zamannya, manakala ayahnya bernama ‘Imran b Basyim, seorang ahli pemuka Bani Israel. Suatu hari ketika Maryam belum dilahirkan, ibunya melihat seekor burung memberi makan kepada anaknya dengan paruhnya, lalu dia bernazar bahawa sekiranya Allah mengurniakan seorang anak kepadanya, dia akan menjadikan anaknya pelayan di Baitul Maqdis untuk mengabdi kepada agama Allah (seperti dalam Surah Ali ‘Imran, 3: 35). Pada zaman itu ramai orang berebut untuk menjadi pelayan di rumah suci itu.
Setelah Maryam dilahirkan dan di hibahkan kepada Baitul Maqdis, berlakulah perselisihan antara ahli ibadah akan siapa penjaga kepada bayi itu. Penyelesaiannya adalah dengan mengundi. Masing-masing ahli ibadah menyerahkan pena dan mengumpulkan pena-pena tersebut. Setelah itu, seorang anak kecik disuruh mengambil salah satunya. Akhirnya, pena Nabi Zakariyya yang dipilih sebanyak tiga kali. Untuk kali yang seterusnya, pena-pena tersebut diletakkan dalam air. Pena-pena selain Nabi Zakariyya hanyut, maka dengan yang demikian jelaslah bahawa Nabi Zakariyya yang berhak ke atas Maryam.
Yang demikian itu adalah sebahagian dari berita-berita ghaib yang Kami wahyukan kepada kamu (Muhammad); padahal kamu tidak hadir beserta mereka (untuk mengundi) siapa di antara mereka yang akan memelihara Maryam. Dan kamu tidak hadir di sisi mereka ketika mereka bersengketa. [Ali ‘Imran, 3:44]
Suatu hari Maryam keluar berjalan menuju ke arah timur Masjid Aqsa kerana ada urusan penting. Dicatatkan bahawa Maryam hanya akan keluar dari masjid ketika haid dan juga untuk urusan penting. Tiba-tiba mejelma Jibrail sebagai manusia untuk mengkhabarkan kepada Maryam mengenai khabar gembira bahawa Allah akan memberikan seorang anak lelaki suci kepadanya. Kisah ini tercatat dalam AlQuran: [Maryam, 19:16-22]
Dan ceritakanlah (kisah) Maryam di dalam AlQuran, iaitu ketika ia menjauhkan diri dari keluarganya ke suatu tempat di sebelah timur, maka ia mengadakan tabir (yang melindunginya) dari mereka, lalu Kami mengutus roh Kami kepadanya, maka ia menjelma di hadapannya (dalam bentuk) manusia yang sempurna. Maryam berkata “Sesungguhnya aku berlindung daripadamu kepada Yang Maha Pemurah, jika kamu seorang yang bertaqwa.” Ia (Jibril) berkata: “Sesungguhnya aku ini hanyalah seorang utusan Tuhanmu untuk memberimu seorang anak lelaki suci. Maryam berkata: “Bagaimana akan ada bagiku seorang anak lelaki sedangkan seorang manusia pun tidak pernah menyentuhku dan aku bukan (pula) seorang penzina.” Jibril berkata “Demikianlah, Tuhanmu berfirman: “Hal itu adalah mudah bagiKu dan agar Kami dapat menjadikannya suatu tanda bagi manusia dan sebagai rahmat dari Kami, dan hal itu aalah suatu perkara yang sudah diutuskan.” Maka maryam mengandungnya, lalu ia menyendiri dengan kandungannya itu ke tempat yang jauh.
Orang pertama yang mengetahui hal kehamilan Maryam ialah Yusuf an-Najjar seorang ahli ibadah Bani Israel yang juga adalah saudara sepupu Maryam. Pada suatu hari Yusuf datang menemui Maryam dan bertanya
“Maryam mungkinkah ada tumbuhan tanpa benih?”
“ Ya ada. Siapakah yang menciptakan tumbuhan sebelumnya sebelum ada biji?” Maryam bertanya balik.
“Mungkinkah ada anak lahir tanpa sentuhan seorang lelaki?”
“Ya mengapa tidak. Allah menciptakan Adam tanpa lelaki dan perempuan sebelumnya”.
“Ceritakanlah kepadaku kisah yang menimpamu”
“Sesungguhnya Allah memberi kabar gembira kepadaku dengan lahirnya seorang anak bernama al-Masih, ‘Isa bin Maryam yang mulia di dunia dah akhirat, serta termasuk di antara hamba soleh yang dekat kepada Allah. Seorang yang mampu berbicara ketika masih bayi dan ketika masih berada dalam ayunan.”
Ibnu Katsir menyebutkan bahawa Maryma mengandung ‘Isa selama 9 bulan seperti wanita lain hamil. Ada yang mengatakan Maryam mengandung dalam beberapa jam sahaja. Wallahu ‘alam.
Ketika Maryam merasakan masa kelahiran segera tiba, Maryam pergi ke tempat yang jauh dan sepi hinggalah tiba di bawah sebuah pohon kurma yang tak berbuah. Membayangkan apa yang akan kaumnya tanggapi ketika dia melahirkan bayinya, Maryam berkata “Mengapa aku tidak mati saja sebelum ini, dan saya menjadi orang lupa dan dilupakan.”
Jibril datang dan menenangkan hatinya
Maka Jibril menyerunya dari tempat yang rendah: “Janganlah kamu bersedih hati, sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah menjadikan anak sungai di bawahmu. Dan goyangkanlah pangkal pohon kurma itu ke arahmu, nescaya pohon itu akan menggugurkan buah kurma yang matang kepadamu. Maka makan, minum dan bersenang hatilah kamu. Jika kamu melihat seorang manusia, maka katakanlah: “ Sesungguhnya aku telah bernazar berpuasa untuk Yang Maha Pemurah, maka aku tidak akan berbicara dengan seorang manusia pun hari ini.”
[Maryam, 19:24-26]
Dalam syari’at zaman itu, puasa tidak hanya kepada tidak makan dan tidak minum, tetapi juga tidak berbicara.
Seketika itu juga Allah menciptakan sungai di bawah kakinya dan menumbuhkan buah pada pohon kurma yang asalnya tidak berbuah.
Setelah Maryam melahirkan ‘Isa datanglah kaumnya menuduhnya yang bukan-bukan
Kaumnya berkata: “Wahai Maryam, sesungguhnya kamu telah melakukan sesuatu yang amat munkar. Wahai saudara perempuan Harun, ayahmu sekali-kali bukanlah seorang penjahat dan ibumu sekali-kali bukanlah seorang penzina.”
[Maryam, 19:27-28]
Maryam kemudian menunjuk kepada anaknya tanpa bersuara. Mereka berkata “Bagaimana kami berbicara dengan anak yang masih berada dalam gendongan?” Maka berkatalah anak dalam gendongan itu
‘Isa berkata: “Sesungguhnya aku ini hamba Allah, Dia memberiku al-Kitab (Injil) dan Dia menjadikan aku seorang nabi. Dan dia menjadikan aku seorang yang berbakti di mana saja aku berada, dan Dia memerintahkan kepadaku solat dan zakat selama aku hidup, dan berbakti kepada ibuku, dan Dia tidak menjadikan aku seorang yang sombong lagi celaka. Dan kesejahteraan semoga dilimpahkan kepadaku, pada hari aku dilahirkan, pada hari meninggal dan pada hari aku dibangkitkan kembali.”
[Maryam, 19:30-33]
Bani Israel telah merencana untuk membunuh Nabi ‘Isa dan tatkala mereka menemui ‘Isa di suatu tempat, Allah telah menjadikan salah seorang muridnya menyerupai bentuknya dan Allah mengangkat ‘Isa ke langit dalam keadaan hidup.
Maryam mendengar anaknya telah dibunuh dari orang-orang Yahudi. Lalu Maryam pergi ke tempat yang anaknya tersalib dan mendapati anaknya telah tersalib tujuh hari sebelumnya. Dengan menyangka bahawa itu adalah anaknya, dia meminta orang menurunkannya untuk menguburkannya. Jibril datang kepadanya saat dia Maryam sedang berdiri dekat kuburan dan mengatakan bahawa Allah telah mengangkat anaknya ke langit dalam keadaan hidup. Lima tahun selepas peristiwa itu Maryam meinggal pada usia 53 tahun.
Ada hadith yang meriwayatkan bahawa Allah akan menikahkan Maryam binti ‘Imran denga Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. di syurga kelak.
Rasulullah bersabda “Sesungguhnya Allah kelak akan menikahkan aku di syurga dengan Maryam binti ‘Imran, isteri Firaun dan dengan saudara perempuan Musa.”
[Hadith riwayat Imam Thabrani]
Ibnu ‘Asakir juga meriwayatkan ketika Rasulullah s.a.w datang menemui Khadijah, saat sakit yang menyebabkannya meninggal, beliau bersabda “Khadijah jika kamu berjumpa dengan madu-madumu (para isteri nabi) nanti, sampaikan salam dariku.”
Khadijah menjawab “Rasulullah, bukankah sebelumku engkau tidak menikah?”
Rasulullah bersada “Tidak. Tetapi Allah kelak akan menikahkanku dengan Maryam binti ‘Imran, Asiya binti Firaun, dan Kultsum saudara perempuan Nabi Musa.”
Wallahu a’lam.....

A miracle indeed..Anything is possible if Allah wishes..kun fa yakuun~


Suddenly today I began reading other people's blog..Usually I wouldn't bother reading them..but today somehow dapat ilham from Allah to just keep on reading..and alhamdulillah I read about 5 blogs!

I like reading about other people's 'transformations'. How they were before and how they are now so very different from their usual self. Everything is all the workings of Allah. Subhanallah...How He could easily give hidayah to anyone He chooses..and what a blessing for those chosen ones! Ya Allah place me with those that You bless..Ya Rahman..Ya Raheem..

Its true how they say that when you have something so valuable, don't let it go...Try your best to run after it..never never let it go..as it may not come again...

Goes the same with Allah's hidayah..everytime the hidayah comes knocking on your 'door', dont let it go to waste..

I am still in the process of knowing this beautiful religion. Sometimes I envy those who have no basics at all about Islam and with Allah's will, they recieve this sinar Iman..starting from zero sometimes makes you hold stronger to the thing that you did not get before..

I feel like its harder for those who know alot but seldom do practice the knowledge that they know. Ada apa dengan ilmu kalo tak diamalkan?? Its not that I'm not grateful..for being brought up in a good islamic environment and going to Islamic schools..It's just that sometimes I feel that what's the point of knowing all these things about Islam but don't practice it? Like what Ummi likes to say tak ada penghayatan agama. Benar.
Penghayatan agama comes with knowledge. But with knowledge itself won't do. Need to really selami what you learn..

Learning with the a different kaca mata could really change you 360 degrees! You could see clearly your pathway..why do you learn these stuff...what to take out of what you learn..how do you relate it to the dakwah your holding to...

But sometimes when you're too busy with assignments and stuff..you forget. Just forget. Forgot that those things are just 'side dishes'..They're not your main dish...I keep on forgetting..What have I done?

I pray that the feeling of downess is a booster to wake me up..Wake up Iffah!! Don't let this duniya decieve you..

Living overseas sometimes make you adapt to their culture..I don't want to be like them..too much concentrating on what to wear..and sometimes forgetting why you actually wear what you wear..we should always refresh our soul..refresh our niat..Ya Allah..I am wearing this hijab to cover my aurat..not because it makes me look beautiful or anything..

I'm hoping that reflecting back these teeny tiny things would wake me up. InsyaAllah..

We are here to work..work as hard as we can..for the hereafter is the eternal rest...

Till we blog again..


Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh....

Ramadhan is getting nearer and nearer. I never did notice that time would fly that fast. It felt like as if it was just yesterday the beginning of Rejab..then came Sha'aban..and now we're just less than two weeks before Ramadhan! MasyaAllah Iffah!! Have you not notice that the most rewarding month is coming??!! Wake up Iffah!!

This feeling of homesick is getting onto me...Oh how syok Ramadhan was in Malaysia...in KMS...in Bangi...the one thing that drives my emotion now is the feeling of being so close with our Creator..Remember the times when we would sleep in Allah's House? And everyone coming there only wants to fully i'tiqaf in the masjid...Nothing else in mind...Just HIM...

Well..anyway..I'm truly grateful the akak2 here planned for the 'Month of Good Doings'..yup yup yup...the programme is just as the name suggests..its basically for the whole August..I bet the objective of it was to give us some warm-ups before Ramadhan :)

Then the truth reveals itself...jeng jeng jeng..I've just recently started to take note of the list of things I should be doing daily..weekly..monthly...and..then I only realize that I really need self-improving!!

Well..for your information..I'm not that kind of organized person...i describe myself as flexible..having a flexible timetable..which could be good in some ways..but most of the time not so good...sob sob..

So we all had this cute little cards having boxes to tick...and every night before going to bed, I would spare some time doing some memory exercises to see what have I done today...like the song 'What Did I Do Today?' by Dawud Wharnsby Ali..

It turns out to be that it really is hard to maintain akhlaq mulia..not as easy as it seems...practically speaking that is..

Throughout the first 5 days, I've only managed to tick once the box of 'not saying impolite words' such as gile, dowh, poyo etc...Somehow gila seems to be the most exaggerating word one would use nowadays..especially muah...isy isy isy

Oh yeah..another one..mengumpat..how hard is it to abandon this mostly-girls-related act? There always will be times when we'll talk about lecturers..imitate the way they talk...complaining about people in our classes and etc..Sometimes even saying bad things in front of their faces..mentang2lah dorang tak paham..Astaghfirullah...To my surprise, I've met a lot of New Zealanders who could speak and UNDERSTAND Malay! If we were to know that these people could actually understand if we were talking about them, wouldnt we be ashamed of ourselves? What sort of manner is that as muslims? We should be more ashamed with ourselves for Allah knows bits and pieces of our hearts...

Here are some of the lists that we should check daily to make sure that our iman is strengthened:

  • Give salam to friends and muslim neighbours upon meeting (the neighbour part doesn't work for me as I have a Denmark n German neighbour..)
  • Smile with sincerity to pals n neighbours (now this..I can do!)
  • Ziarah to friends' room
  • Give useful piece of advice
  • No mengumpat
  • Not saying impolite words (as mentioned before)
  • Helping those in trouble
  • Treating visitors to your room nicely
  • Make doa for friends n family
  • Istighfar and forgive everyone before going to bed...

And the list continues....

You know how they that say that akhlaq mencerminkan peribadi ? true. true.

So the ayat for today :

"Whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth exalts Allah and He is the Exalted in Might, the Wise. O you who have believed! Why do you say what you do no do? Great is hatred in the sight of Allah that you say what you do not do." (As-Saff 61:1-3)

InsyaAllah let's do our best to walk our talk..Ameen

Assalamualaikum my dear friends

Have you ever wondered how it'd be like when you have a secret and you don't want anyone to know about it?

Have you ever trusted someone so much that you would swear he/she would never reveal it to others?

Wouldn't it be nice if you were one of those people who others put their trust and believe in you.
This is exactly what one of the companions of the prophet peace upon him was honoured with. His name is Huzaifah Al-Yaman.
The prophet Muhammad peace be upon him gave Huzaifah Al-Yaman the title of 'Penyimpan Rahsia Rasulullah s.a.w' because of his trustworthiness. The prophet revealed to him, and only him alone, the names of the munafiquuns in Madinah. Knowing this, everytime a muslim villager died, the Caleeph Amirul Mukminin 'Umar ibn Khattab would always be watching whether Huzaifah would pray the jenazah or not. If he wouldn't then 'Umar wouldn't as well as he knew that that person must have been in the list of the munafiquuns mentioned by the prophet.

There was also this one time when 'Umar knew about a munafiq working under him. He tried to get some answers from Huzaifah but due to Huzaifah's loyalty in keeping what the prophet has amanahkan to him, so 'Umar didn't get the answer he wanted. But through Allah's hidayah which He can place upon in the mukmineen hearts, 'Umar knew who that person was and fired him. Subhanallah, this hidayah of Allah is sometimes through instinct.

I remembered one of my dearly teachers once said "trust your heart" or "listen to what you heart tells you". Even the prophet mentioned the same thing when Waabishah ibn Ma'bad came to him. The prophet asked "Did you come to ask me about righteousness?" Waabishah replied "Na'am (yes)". "Consult your heart! Righteousness is that about which the soul feels tranquil and the heart feels tranquil, and sin is what creates restlessness in the souls and moves to and fro in the breast, even though people give you their opinion (in your favour) and continue to do so", said the prophet Muhammad peace be upon him.

Looking back at this hadeeth, old memories flash as fast as I'm typing this. It's truly true isn't it? Sometimes we just have this gut feeling that this is right and that is not. It just depends on how strong our mujahadah is to follow the instinct speaking within us.

But, how about those who would have an instinct of that always tells him/her to do bad things? Such as wasting time with movies? or going out on a date? Isn't that also a gut feeling?

Well, having a pure heart lets the heart make the right judgement. Having an instinct that is truly reliable, one that is an 'ilham' from Allah, or that is truly guided by Allah, is the dream of the mukmineens. A good heart would control the whole body to righteousness while a corrupted one would lead you astray.

Abu 'Abdullah al-Nu'man bin Bashir r.a. said that he heard the Messenger of Allah s.a.w say ".....Beware, in the body there is a flesh; if it is sound, the whole body is sound, and if it is corrupt, the whole body is corrupt, and behold, it is the heart."

So my dear friends, let's all make doa to Allah so that He purifies our heart and always ask forgiveness from Allah. Who knows maybe tomorrow or perhaps the next hour, we are no longer breathing...

I want to be like Huzaifah Al-Yaman. How about you?


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